Fears and failures

For the past few weeks, I have been submerging myself in a pool of neglect and denial. I have been neglecting my health and denying the fact that I have been. As a result, I have fallen terribly sick.
Not just physically, mentally as well.

I want to be as honest as possible with you, the one reading this, as I know how amazing the support for my project has been. I am still very grateful. That is why, I owe it to you guys to tell you this.

I am afraid. Terribly afraid that my fundraising will not go as planned and I won't be able to raise enough money by the time it comes to pay up the remaining amount(£1560). I have tried and tried to be optimistic about it but as the day ticks down, so did my optimism.
Initially, getting 400 people to donate £5 seemed like an easy job, now I am only realising how tough it is to get people on your side.

Saying that, those who have donated with so much kindness and generosity, I am truly blessed and grateful. I cannot say that enough. Seriously, thank you so much.

I did try to do two fundraising events, which I planned to make a grand announcement. The first one was the selling of dreamcatchers in my school. I was a bit on the fence about it but I eventually saw through it and managed to raise £240 which is beyond my expectations.

My poster for the sale 

This was taken the day before I got ill --but managed to raise £240!!

My last and final event was to run a 10K. I signed up for it, even trained for it but eventually couldn't attend. Why? Because I fell sick. 

Yes the run was supposed to be today (17/05/2015) and I was supposed to announce it a week earlier so people can pledge for me to run. I was so upset that I left it till the last minute to announce it and ending up not doing it.
In retrospect, it was good that I didn't announce it, as I didn't expect myself to be this sick (phlegm, sore throat, dry coughs etc). I'll save you from picturing my condition the past few days.. let's just say I was in no state to be seen by others. No worries though, I am getting better. Slowly.

So there's me in my low point in life.

Again, thank you so much for supporting me, you guys are the sole driving force right now.
Promise, next post will be more cheerful! Just need to have a positive mind and a clearer nose.

Till then,
Liza xx